…i’ve been…sorta scared of this day. the day my adolescence leaves completely and i turn 21…honestly thought something would happen to me before this day. something fatal. no idea why. i just felt…I wouldn’t age to be a true…adult. iono man its like…I’ve held onto this for so long, and this is truly the next step man…nothing is barred now, I am an official MAN…no matter how I act, I’m viewed in society like everybody else once I hit this age…
…hence why I wanted to really record this 404’s mixtape and release it today. of course its not coming out today (LOLOLOLO) but I might as well spoil the concept since its pretty much never gonna be recorded ever. seeeeeeee…if y’all followed mymannmarc last year and remembered the post where I was kidnapped by maturity (hi Vanessa lol), I figured I would see her again after the idea of her dipped last year when I turned 20. the mixtape was gonna start off with a track that would make no sense (yall heard Brenda’s Got A Tumblr already) until the end of the tape…the tape would’ve went on with retarded based freestyles, whole bunch of stupid shit…reason being is I wanted to have on record the times when I would have fun and not give a damn about ANYTHING…even with my friends, too…hence why I had Allen on the tape…not only because he’s a great rapper to me with a great presence but he’s one of the people I consider a friend on this site man. those tracks would’ve meant alot to me even if they were completely facetious with the rhymes.
fast forward to that part would’ve been three or four tracks that would’ve been serious. first track would’ve been me simping like a bitch in autotune on some Trey Songz shit trying to swoon the Tumblr females…second track was gonna be a serious song about fading memories, the long distance talking you go thru on here with people you actually care about…there was a track I would’ve had with Emon where I woulda rapped SERIOUS on…like, vent shit on, get you in the mood of how stress and online shit and aging starts getting to me…last track was gonna be over a MARSZ beat and it would’ve had me killed right there. i would’ve died. in a car accident. that’s the end of the tape. Skip was supposed to be at the end giving a eulogy…and I’d be in Heaven…and I’d see Brenda…there was a lyric when I said “a young boy passed and saw the whole damn thing”…that boy was me…and in that outro I’d learn that Brenda was really maturity trying to reach me this whole time…unfortunately I had to pass before I really got to see her and understand what she was about, and that was gonna be the true essence of the tape…
…it was gonna be fun man…but that’s not the point, POINT IS…maybe its best that I didn’t do the tape…cuz I’m here man, and I think she’s looking down on this day…watching me…probably not even gonna visit me this year but I know she’s here man…this is the year…and, iono, shit sounds pretty corny at this point lol, but I know this is the year that shit’s gonna change man. and maturity will be right there with me.
